My Prince

I sit

I stare

Out the window, I look

I wait

For a prince to rescue me

Alas, he is rescuing someone else

I hope he will come soon

You

You know me like no other

You feel me like no other

You love me like no other

You hurt me like no other

You make me happy

You make me smile

You make me laugh

You make me cry

You make me ache

You make me at times want to die

You stab me in the back

You sell me out

You kill my hopes and dreams

But yet, I always run to you

Why does it always have to be about you?

From now on, it's about me

Repression

My feelings are repressed

I need to let them go

I need to let you go

We are so close, but yet, so far away

My heart tells me one thing,

but my head tells another story

I long to tell you how I truly feel

Maybe you already know

Look into my eyes

Look into my soul

Never leave me

Never

Feelings

Feelings of loneliness

Feelings of pain

Feelings of sorrow

Feelings of desperation

Feelings of emptiness

Feelings of self-hatred

Feelings of another place

Feelings of a way out

These are my feelings

I need you to help me feel differently

before it's too late

Hurry, time is running out!

And so are my feelings

You make me smile
You make me giddy
You make my heart melt
Your gaze entraps me,
causing my heart to surrender to you
You fill my soul with hope and laughter-
it's been empty for so long
You make me want to be a better person
Thank you

For so many days, I've longed for someone like you
You came into my life when I needed you most
Your strength and faith astound me
I have never wanted to be near someone
like I want to be near you
When the phone rings, my heart skips a beat
The sound of your voice is heaven-sent
You gave me life and light
You inspire me
Your laugh is the most beautiful sound on earth
I don't want to share you with anyone,
yet, I want the entire world to see just how
truly amazing you are
I want to sing beautiful music to you and to you alone
I want to be the air you breathe
I want to give all of my love to you
and that's a lot

My eyes see far beneath your skin
They see into your soul
Your image is burned into my mind,
into my soul

Tick, tock, tick, tock
Is it the sound of my clock,
Or the beating of my heart,
beating for you

These dreams that I carry
Are they truth
or just make-believe

Make me believe they are true
Love me as I love you

I love you
I need you
I crave you
I always have

When I hear your name,
my heart jumps
my stomach flutters
I long for you
I want to be with you forever,
eternally

The waiting
The hurting
The needing
The wanting
The aching
Are you worth it?
I think so
No, I KNOW so

Abandoned Heart

I knew love once
He was everything to me,
but he abandoned me

I want to share my love with someone,
but you always abandon me

At times, I even abandon myself

Right now, I need to abandon these feelings
before YOU abandon me

If I could kiss your lips every day,
I would never be sad
If I could fall asleep in your arms every night,
I would never be scared
If I could wake up next to you,
every day would be a good one
If I could take away your pain and fears,
you would never hurt again
If I could make you love me,
you would see just how much
you mean to me

When you look into my eyes,
the world stands still
When you hold me in your arms,
I have never felt safer
All of my fears disappear
when I am next to you
I just don't understand
why you won't let your
heart feel it, too
Is it your pride or your fear
that stands in your way
Are you going to push me
away like your feelings
I won't let you
Not now,
not ever

I am a girl
scared and fragile
I am naive and innocent,
yet, protective of my surroundings
I am inquisitive and curious of what makes you human

I want to see the world through your eyes
and partake of your knowledge

I want you to break me out of this
child-like state that I am stuck in
Yet, I want you to be my protector;
for I feel safest when I am in your arms

I want you to feel the way I do for once

You seem to be this pillar of strength,
but you can crumble at any minute

I want to be the one to pick up your pieces
and place themback to where you
are whole and can truly feel again

When that happens, this scared little girl
will become the woman she has always
wanted to be

I lost myself in you for a moment
-a moment I wanted to last a lifetime
All of my hopes and fears
were in the palm of your hand
You couldn't handle them, though
You conquered the guardian that protects my heart,
but when you go there, you didn't want it any longer
The chase was fun until you won the prize
and now, the trophy is tarnished and ruined
What will you do with it
Things were so perfect and right,
but you got scared
Who are you gonna run to this time
Well, it isn't me anymore, baby
I'm moving on
The time has come
So, when you look for me to be at your door
Just remember, I'm gone from that moment

If your soul were a color, which one would it be?
For I cannot pick just one
There is yellow for the sunshine that makes me happy
and allows my inner beauty to shine through
There is green for all the envy in my heart
The envy of her that she is the one that your heart
still longs for
There is red for the love that I have been waiting
to give if you would just allow your heart
to receive it
There is blue for the sadness and lonliness
that I feel for the longing of you
Blue is also for the hurt that exists in my heart
Please tell me there is more to you than just gray
Gray is so cold and univiting
You heart doesn't have to be that way anymore
I want you to feel the warmth of my colors.

I wish you knew love like you knew me
You left my soul naked and exposed
I kept reaching for your heart, but just kept slipping
-slipping into a state of complete sadness
I wish you would lift me up and embrace me
Embrace me in the love I have for you
Dress my soul in warmth and kidness,
for your love is the greatest accessory that
I could ever wear.

I'm glad I didn't give you my heart- completely
I wanted to give it to you whole, but I couldn't
I was scared and I didn't know why
Now, I do
You couldn't love me the way that I loved you
You belong to someone else
But why couldn't you tell me?
Why did I have to play this guessing game that I would lose
How could you not know
I hope she can love you more
I hope she is better for you
I hope I never meet her

I'm finally over you
I've truly moved on
It's so easy to forget about you,
yet, so hard to remember you
-NOW

This has been a difficult journey
One with paths of thorns
The beauty lies at the edge of the road
If only you can continue on

The joy of conquering your inner demons
has left my heart full
Full of happiness and wonderment
That before could have never been enjoyed

I'm playing with fire
I'm about to get burned
The scars that are developing are not seen,
for they are in my heart

Just as my wounds begin to heal,
The fire enrages

Then again, my heart is slowly becoming ice cold
-ONCE MORE