Don't hold yourself like that
You'll hurt your knees
I kissed your mouth and back
But that's all I need
Don't build your world around volcanoes melt you down
What I am to you is not real
What I am to you you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask for the sea
Don't throw yourself like that
In front of me
I kissed your mouth your back
Is that all you need?
Don't drag my love around volcanoes melt me down
What I am to you is not real
What I am to you you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask
For what I give to you
Is just what i'm going through
This is nothing new
No no just another phase of finding what I really need
Is what makes me bleed
Like a new disease she's still too young
What I am to you (She´s still to young)
is not real (She´s still to young)
What I am to you (She´s still to young)
you do not need (She´s still to young)
What I am to you (She´s still to young)
is not real (She´s still to young)
What I am to you (She´s still to young)

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes...
And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most...of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes...
Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody else

We might kiss
when we are alone
when nobody’s watchin’
we might take it home
we might make out
when nobody's there
it's not that we're scared
it's just that it's delicate
so why'd ya fill my sorrow
with the words you borrow
from the only place you've known
why'd ya sing hallelujah
if it means nothin’ to ya
why'd ya sing with me at all?
we might live
like never before
when there's nothin’ to give
well, how can we ask for more?
we might make love
in some sacred place
that look on your face
is delicate
so why'd ya fill my sorrow
with the words you borrowed
from the only place that you've known
why'd ya sing hallelujah
if it means nothin’ to ya
why'd ya sing with me at all?
so why'd ya fill my sorrow
with the words you borrow
from the only place that you've known
and why'd ya sing hallelujah
if it means nothin’ to ya
why'd ya sing with me at all?

I really want a yummy, delicious salad right now. There aren't too many times where I crave salad, but right now is one of them.

Week two of Hell Month is now over. Only a few more to go. I have vacation in 2 weeks, so I am pretty stoked about that.

I start back hardcore tomorrow on WW. I have really not been trying the past 2 weeks and it is starting to show. I need that drive back. I need that motivation. I suck.

I officially enter the SMIT program tomorrow. In just a few weeks, I will have my own store. I never thought this day would come, nor did I want it before. I just want the money...

Benji is here. Oh, how I love him. I just love being around Shakirra and my little monkey, Tobey.

My tummy feels weird right now.

I started my Book of Mormon in 6 months challenge today. Last time, I finished in 3. That's because I was doing the missionary challenge. This time, I am just going to do the regular one. We shall see.

I think I am going to take a shower...

This post will probably not be very long since I have to get up early in the morning and work. I am watching Teen Witch right now. It's pretty much one of my all-time favorite movies. It's SO cheesy and SO incredibly 80s, but that's what I love so much about it. Fuh real, yo.

I just had the most delicious Healthy Choice ice cream bar. Love on a stick, I tell you.

Whoa, Jen, we DEFINITELY need to talk soon.

I went to the doctor today and talked to him about the whole breast reduction and acne thing. He said that we can definitely see about the surgery and that it might be a really good idea, but I need to lose the weight first before we even consider surgery. As for my acne, he put me on an anti-biotic. Dad was supposed to pick it up for me tonight, but I guess he forgot. Such is life. I will kindly remind him in the morning to do that for me.

I am glad that I remembered to pay my car insurance today. Yay for still being able to be a legal driver in the state of Louisiana.

Jen, about the favor. I was wondering if you would sign up for a free two week trial of Blockbuster Total Access. You get the movies sent to your house and when you are done watching them, you can bring them back to the store and get a free rental for each one you bring back. It's completely free for two weeks. I just need to get the website for you. I will do that tomorrow at work. If you will do that, I will be forever indebted to you!

Okay, it's time to get ready for bed. Good night.

How sad was I when I stepped on the scale and saw that I hadn't lost anything from last week. Actually, I did because I know at one point, I had gained because I cheated and got on the scale MANY times last week. It was very sad. And, I know that I am about to start my period within the next 3 days, so that's a big thing. I honestly don't care what the scale says as long as I am starting to look different and my clothes feel different. That's what's most important to me.

Like I said earlier, this is a a new week. I choose whether or not it will be good or bad!

One more thing. I think that each week, I am going to take a pic of myself so I can see progress. Good idea?

Holy bologna! I FINALLY just saw the JT "D**k in a Box" video on YouTube. Pure genius, I tell you. I laughed so hard. It's pretty much just as good as the George Washington video, fo sho.

When I am a little old lady, I am going to have very big hair. I have already decided this.

Ugh, I don't want to do anything today. I just want to stay home in my pajamas. I don't have another day off until next Saturday. I really do hate my job most days, but I don't want to go without health insurance again. Freaking a. It just pisses me off that Jason thinks he has so much stress with his job that he needed to take vacation. You are PART-TIME and you only work like 3 days a week if that at all. Actually, lately, you have only been working 2 days. I don't want to hear your crap just because you want to go have sex with your girlfriend in Pennsylvania. Ugh...

Sorry about that last little rant. I just had to get that off of my chest.

I really need to get my eyebrows waxed. They are looking way funky right now.

So, it's Day 5 of WW. I am starting to feel the itch of wanting bad things and to give in. I can't. I CAN'T!!! I WON'T!! Monday starts the exercise portion of my quest.

As for right now, I am still kinda tired so I am going to take a nap before I have to get ready to teach a voice lesson.

Employee of the Month is truly one of the funniest movies I have seen in a long time, aside from Little Miss Sunshine. I hate that Jessica Simpson is in Employee of the Month, though. She is about as cool as AIDS.

I just went in the kitchen to see if there was anything to eat because I am hungry and still have some points for the day that I can use. There wasn't anything to eat that didn't involve cooking or birthday cake, so I will just drink my Spool-Aid and go to sleep. By the way, Spool-Aid is Kool-Aid made with Splenda, rather than sugar. It tastes almost exactly the same and it is NO calories. That makes me way happy.

So, I made it through day 3. That's more than I have gotten through in a long time. I just keep thinking about the end results. That's what is helping me. I am going to allow myself a $100 shopping spree when I lose my 30 pounds. After I lose those 30 pounds, I will have just 55 to get down to my goal weight. Yes, indeed. HOLLA!

I really want a salad right now with corn and green beans and cooked carrots in it. I know it sounds gross, but when I was staying with the Penas in Monroe after Katrina, Sister Pena made this caesar salad that had all of those ingredients in it. It was DELISH! I think I might go get the stuff to make some of that for tomorrow.

It is FRICKIN' FREEZING, Mr. Bigglesworth. It's so cold in this house right now that you could cut glass. Sorry, that was inside joke in high school. Nevermind.

I had birthday cake today and it was so good, but I literally felt sick after I ate it. Way too much frosting. Oh, so, good, though. Sometimes, there is nothing better than a piece of cake from Winn-Dixie.

Okay, well, I guess I am going to quit rambling and get to sleep. I need to go get a bookcase from Office Depot tomorrow morning and I am starting to get sleepy.

I sat down tonight and figured out how I can have my credit cards paid off by January. ALL 4, baby! Um, why didn't I do this before? Oh, because I am stupid. It's not that I am stupid, it's just that I am scared of money. I have ALWAYS been afraid of money. I am scared that I will not have enough money and something really bad will happen and I will not be okay. When I had to evacuate for Katrina, I had less than 100 dollars to my name. This had to last me until I could get paid which was two weeks later. Benji told me that he would send me money if I needed it. I had a rental car that used a LOT of gas because it was a V6 engine and I just didn't know what was going to happen.

I have a job that I work like a dog, but don't get the best pay. I have health insurance, which I don't know what I would do without it. Anyways, I do okay now and hopefully, we will get a decent raise in a few weeks.

I have been making minimum payments on my credit cards forever because I am always so scared that I won't have money left after everything is paid. Tonight, I sat down and realized that I CAN do this. I paid off one of my cards tonight, so that's a major step. I want to have the next one paid off in April. The 3rd one should be paid off by November, and the last one, in Jan of 08. After that, I will just have my student loans to pay. In a way, I am really excited about this.

Well, I am going to try and get some sleep now. My sleep schedule is so off because of work this weekend.