I sat down tonight and figured out how I can have my credit cards paid off by January. ALL 4, baby! Um, why didn't I do this before? Oh, because I am stupid. It's not that I am stupid, it's just that I am scared of money. I have ALWAYS been afraid of money. I am scared that I will not have enough money and something really bad will happen and I will not be okay. When I had to evacuate for Katrina, I had less than 100 dollars to my name. This had to last me until I could get paid which was two weeks later. Benji told me that he would send me money if I needed it. I had a rental car that used a LOT of gas because it was a V6 engine and I just didn't know what was going to happen.

I have a job that I work like a dog, but don't get the best pay. I have health insurance, which I don't know what I would do without it. Anyways, I do okay now and hopefully, we will get a decent raise in a few weeks.

I have been making minimum payments on my credit cards forever because I am always so scared that I won't have money left after everything is paid. Tonight, I sat down and realized that I CAN do this. I paid off one of my cards tonight, so that's a major step. I want to have the next one paid off in April. The 3rd one should be paid off by November, and the last one, in Jan of 08. After that, I will just have my student loans to pay. In a way, I am really excited about this.

Well, I am going to try and get some sleep now. My sleep schedule is so off because of work this weekend.