I haven't posted in a while. I have just been consumed.

I finally graduated on May 15. I don't ever have to go to school again if I don't want to!!!! That is kind of an AMAZING thought!!!

I am frustrated about work, though. I have been running our department for months now. I haven't had anyone's help. I applied for the sup position, but they wanted to hire an external candidate that had a degree in management and he had more management experience. I get that, but why not give me the opportunity to show what I can do. We have some of the highest numbers that we have had in months and that is because of what I have done. "We don't want to set you up for failure." It's always their cop-out excuse. I don't know what more I can do. Why should I keep stressing myself over a job where it seems that I really have no future with anymore? I know that I need to branch out and look for something else. I was just kinda waiting to see what would happen with the sup spot. I know this is just another sign that I am not supposed to stay there. It is so disheartening that I have been turned down so many times because I don't have enough experience. How can I gain experience if they aren't developing me? It is just so frustrating and I feel so bummed. If I had no work ethic, I would slack off and not do anything. Not to mention the fact that some people who happened to apply for the job that are in another department, decided to vent to me about how they are the most qualified for that job. How is someone in that store more qualified than me to be that supervisor. I had to leave before it got ugly. I was feeling my blood pressure rise. I have tried so much to not let things bother me, but it is getting hard these days. Everyone seems to get time off except for me. I am not asking for much, just more that a day off so I can get something accomplished in my room or just have some time to myself. I guess I want too much. I only have a few weeks left without Mandy. I need to prove to everyone that she only brings the team down.

I didn't really want this to be negative, however, I needed to get it all off of my chest. I definitely feel much better :)