It's time for a post.

I am at such a really weird place right now and for the first time in a really long time, I have started to love myself again. It seems like over the past few years, I have just focused on so much of the bad stuff, that I forget all of the good that goes on in my life. Like these jokers in the pics. I am so blessed to have them in my life.

I have met two guys in the past few months that have made me realize that I still can be attractive. I went out on a date with one of them. It was a blind date and it wasn't anything too big, but he is really sweet and I am enjoying getting to know him. We don't have a lot in common, but regardless of what happens, I feel like we will always be friends.

Then, the other one. I can't explain it, but I think the more and more I talk to him, the more and more I just want to make out with him. We text each other every night before bed and I find it harder and harder to stop talking to him. He told me that his day gets a lot better once he talks to me. As close as I want to be to him, I am deathly afraid. I am afraid that I will fall for him. I am afraid that he will wear me down. I just want to lay in his arms and him be okay with that. I want him to give me what Kyle couldn't. I am tired of feeling like this. I want more, but how do I tell him? Le sigh. Maybe I should sleep on him, I mean it....